[He flinches at the nickname even from Dan Heng, at the moment. It's not even that he dislikes it. In fact he likes it very much, it's just... too much, perhaps, now that Blade's unintentionally broken the seal on his emotions.]
No, I--
[He was at least slightly forcing the tears back. He's great at self-control. But Blade's an idiot, so when Jing Yuan's wrists are grabbed he looks up, sees the worry on Blade's face and that he's pulled his hair up, and... totally loses it.
He knew this was a bad idea!!! The worst part is that he's immeasurably happy to be with them, and that makes the pain so much worse. And thus now they've gone from "doing his best to suppress quiet tears" general to "curling in on himself with big heaving sobs" general. 700 years is a long time to bottle shit up.]
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No, I--
[He was at least slightly forcing the tears back. He's great at self-control. But Blade's an idiot, so when Jing Yuan's wrists are grabbed he looks up, sees the worry on Blade's face and that he's pulled his hair up, and... totally loses it.
He knew this was a bad idea!!! The worst part is that he's immeasurably happy to be with them, and that makes the pain so much worse. And thus now they've gone from "doing his best to suppress quiet tears" general to "curling in on himself with big heaving sobs" general. 700 years is a long time to bottle shit up.]